I never had both parents away from home before.  Usually it's my dad who is away in another state working.  My mom called me while I was at work today.  She told me she was going to another state to help my dad with his business.  She's been talking about it lately I just didn't think it was that fast.  When she told me I started to worry about her.  I know I can take care of my brother, me, and the house.  I was worrying on how my mom was going there?  Is she going to be safe?  Will she find my dad?  Will she get lost?  Will people be a jerk to her cause she doesn't understand English?  Did she take the things she needs and etc?  She left in a hurry I didn't have time to ask.

     Last time I spoke with her on the phone she was on the bus.  She said the ride will take about a day or more.  My mom is almost 40 years old.  She takes great care of us.  She probably doesn't need me to worry about her but I can't help it.  Whenever I worry about my mom I understand how she felt when my brother and I don't answer our phone or don't tell her where we are.  I told her to call me when she gets there.

     I don't mind taking care of my little brother.  I took care of him before.  I have time now that school is going to be over next Monday.  I only work on the weekends.  I could clean and cook. 

     I don't mind my mom leaving.  With her leaving I feel more grown up.  I don't know why.  Although if I could chose I have her stay.
 
     Of course my mom didn't leave us alone.  She made my grandpa come and stay with us.  My grandpa was suppose to help my dad but he got an infection in one of his eye so his vision is blurry.  Instead my mom went in his place.  I told my mom I didn't need anyone but she wouldn't listen.  She said she was afraid that I wouldn't come home at night.  I told her I would never do something that.

P.S.  Now I'm really not going to graduation.  My mom left there won't be anyone left to attend it.  I'll make sure she's there when I graduate from college!

 

     Tonight is prom night.  Since I'm here blogging I'm not going to prom.  I never thought about going to prom before.  Last year this guy asked me to go but I declined his offer.  No regrets.  This year however I didn't give prom a thought until last weekend.  The more I think about it the more I want to go.  I know I will regret not going to prom.  There's nothing I can do.


This dress is so pretty.

P.S.  Not going to graduation either.

     I'm so sick.  I woke up Wednesday morning with a soar throat.  I went to school.  As the day go I felt more sick.  I decided to go to a doctor.  She prescribed some medicine.  I went home and slept for a while.  Woke up with a fever.  I was in bed going from cold to hot.  I took a shower and to my luck there was no hot water.  I had to wash myself with cold water.  Fever went away by 8p.m.  Felt a little better.  Wasn't in the mood to eat.  Went to sleep.

     Woke up this morning with no fever but soar throat was still here.  Tried to eat something before taking my medication.  Couldn't sallow.  Took a 2 tablespoons of cough serum, fever medication, and some other things.  Didn't want to go to school but I had to.  I was scheduled to take a test.  Went to my first period class.  I was the first one there.  I thought noone was coming to class but apparently the class was finished.  Meaning I don't have to go to first period anymore.  Second period teacher wasn't here and so was period four teacher.  Rescheduled my test.  What was the point of me going to school today?

     Throughout the whole day I was drowsy and dizzy.  I felt I could fall or faint any minute.  It must be the medicine.  When I was walking up the staircase I didn't feel tired at all.  Usually I get tire going from first floor to second.  Going down the stairs was scary.  Felt I could fall any minutes.  Made it out today.

     Went home and slept.  Woke up started coughing.  Ate a little.  The medication is not working.  I was only suppose to drink 2 teaspoon of cough serum but I misread the instruction and drank 2 tablespoon.  No wonder I felt high in school. 

     Looking back at my old blogs I noticed I wrote a lot about what happened in lunch.  Lunch for me is never peaceful.  Here is what happened yesterday in lunch.

     Three of my friends including me would be four share a table with a bunch of black kids.  We usually get along fine.  They don't bother us we don't bother them.  If we needed something from them we ask politely and they would give it to us.  If they need something we give it to them.  They stay at their half of the table we stay at ours.  Get the point?

     So yesterday two more black kids came and sat with them.  One of the two is a guy shorter than me the other is a girl way bigger than me.  I haven't seen them in the cafe before.  My friend came and sat next to me.  She sat her trait of food down on the table and the girl just grabbed her bag of apples without asking.  My friend goes "give that back."  The girl ignored my friend and processed to bit the plastic bag to open it.  Seeing her biting the bag I offer my friend my bag of apples but my friend ignored me and continued to shout "why you take that?"  The guy seeing my friend shouting at the girl (probably his girlfriend) gabbed the bag of apples from the girl and threw it in my friends face.  Both of them got up and starting pounding on the table.  They act as if they were going to beat my friend up.  Luckily the other kids told them to clam down.  The other kids were nice enough to apologize for those two animals. 

     The incident doesn't stop there.  After about five minutes the guy now sitting next to my friend asked "can I have that?" pointing to another bag of apples.  My friend ignored him because we all know that weather we give it to them or not they would still take it.  So no point in talking to them.  The guy gets mad again.  Started beating on the table got up and got in my friend's face shouting at her for not answering him.  My friend tells him "just take it."  He gets more angry.  Started saying "I DON'T WANT YOU TO TELL ME TO TAKE IT I WANT YOU TO TELL ME I CAN HAVE IT."  He kept on repeating those words.  I'm sitting there thinking "this guy doesn't make any sense."  How do you force someone to tell you you can have her apples?  So then the girl sitting across the table starts beating the table going "I'm black" and splits out a piece of chicken.  Gross.  Both of them gets up and wanted to beat my friend up again.  Their friends tried to stop them going "stop we don't do that here.  Leave them alone.  I'm sorry.  Stop. Clam down.  What's wrong with you guys."  They stopped.

     They didn't act up until I finished my lunch.  The girl and the guy were play fighting next to another friend across the table.  The guy gets the girl in a headlock.  The girl pushes the guy so they both fell on my friend who told them "leave me alone."  They get angry.  The guy spat on my friend.  Made a big scene.  People were looking.  Security FINALLY came.  They told the guy to get out but he didn't want to.  He was about to take on one of the security until his other friends from other tables told him to stop.  He and the girl sat there quietly for the rest the period.    

     All this trouble for a bag of apples.  Everyone gets to take two bag of apples.  We had lots of apples.  All they have to do was ask.  How hard is that?  Every time they act up I can't help but wonder if they're drunk or high.  I don't understand them.  We're human they're human why is there a big difference between us? 
 

    

     I first saw the news on perezhilton.com.  I didn't think much of it until I went to school on couple of Mondays ago.  I walked into my English class where the teacher informed everyone if someone in the class sneezes that someone will have to spend the rest of the period in the back of the class room.  So yeah I actually wanted to sneeze two times while I was in his class.  I had to hold it in.  Plus the janitors were going around the school wiping door knobs.  I knew it had to be serious since they came all the way from the basement to the third floor.  They usually don't go up to the third floor because it's too high up.  Wonder if they went to the fourth and fifth floor?
    
     Later on I found out more about the flu.  I usually pass by newspaper stands on my way to school and I would read the headlines.  To catch people's attention the headlines would read "182 dead in Mexico."  The government came out saying it's the next epidemic.  At that point I was scared.  I even search the swine flu on Wikipedia.  I even found out that the word "swine" meant pigs.  I used to wonder why it was called the swine flu because in my head a swine was...
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then someone corrected me and told me that that was a SWAN.  I started panicking more when this one time I went out with my mom and she started sneezing.  I told her "mom if your sick you should go to the doctor."  She said "This is allergies."  I sure felt stupid.  Then my dad came home from another state sick.  He was coughing and sneezing.  He had flu like symptoms.  I started worrying again.  I wanted to tell him to go to a doctor but I was afraid he call me stupid.  Anyway he recovered.  My mom told me a nearby school closed because too many students have flu symptoms and she told us not to eat pork.  Since I don't like eating pork in the first place I have no problem with not eating it.
    
     With all the exaggeration from the media I actually felt that I was going to die.  I felt I was so close to death.  I remember thinking "I haven't gone to Disneyland yet I don't want to die."  Time pass by the government decided to change the name from swine flu to H1N1 because a lot of countries doesn't want pork from the U.S.  I think the only reason why they changed the name was to inform people that pork are not dangerous so they could start buying pork again.  I also believe that the government came out and informed us this so they can distract us from worrying about the economy.  Of course they do want to warn people.
 
P.S.  I know my theory might be stupid.  I just can't stop thinking about the economy.  I wish they do something about the economy already.  I still can't find a job.